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You're Not Incomplete.
You Just Forgot.
"Taisha's Book" · On Wholeness, Thoughts, and Your True Self
I've been reading "Taisha's Book" lately, and one idea in it really stayed with me — it made me rethink a question: what does "whole" even mean?
Many of us assume life is a constant project of fixing ourselves. We feel we're not good enough, so we work to become better; we feel incomplete, so we keep searching for whatever might make us whole.
But maybe that's not quite true. Maybe you were always whole. Somewhere along the way of growing up, we simply forgot.
An Analogy
If Life Were a Movie
Imagine life as a movie, and the self you are right now is sitting in the theatre, only able to see the scene playing in front of you.
We're afraid of a present failure, we doubt our whole life over a present loss — because we can't see what happens next.
But the self that is truly whole is more like the director of the entire film.
It knows where the story began, and it knows where every experience is eventually leading.
So some things that look like setbacks right now might just be a scene from a story that hasn't finished playing yet.
You think the story took a wrong turn —maybe it's just that you haven't seen the next scene yet.
Point One
You're Not Missing Something — You Just Can't See the Whole Picture
When we can only see one scene of our life, it's easy to mistake the present moment for the entire story.
One failure, and we feel incapable. One relationship ending, and we feel unworthy of love. One path closing, and we start doubting every choice we made.
But a single scene can never define the whole film.
Some departures make room for a new meeting. Some pauses exist so we can find our direction again. Some experiences that make no sense now will only make sense several chapters later.
Wholeness doesn't mean life stops having gaps. Wholeness is knowing, even in the middle of a gap, that this one scene is not the entire story.
Point Two
The Voice in Your Head Isn't Who You Really Are
So why don't we feel this wholeness? Very often, it's because the voice in our head is too loud.
When these voices keep showing up, we slowly start believing they're who we are. But they're only thoughts. The real you is the one who can watch these thoughts appear.
When you're able to pause, and see the worry, the doubt, the unease in your heart without rushing to follow them, you begin to discover: a thought can be seen, and so a thought is not the whole of you.
A Picture
You're Not the Wave. You're the Whole Ocean.
I like to picture it this way.
Standing by the sea, you watch wave after wave. Sometimes calm, sometimes rough.
If you believe you are the wave, your whole life sways with every rise and fall.
Someone approves of you, and you're happy; someone doesn't, and you doubt yourself. Things go well, and you believe in yourself; things don't, and you feel lost again.
But if you know you are actually the whole ocean, you start to understand:
- Waves come, and waves go.
- Emotions come, and emotions go.
- Thoughts come, and thoughts go.
But you don't become any less because of that. You don't become incomplete.
A wave can change the shape of the water's surface,but it can never take away the sea's wholeness.
Coming Home to Yourself
Growth Isn't Becoming Someone Else
At Soul New Energy, we've always believed real growth isn't becoming someone else.
It isn't a constant proving that you're good enough, and it isn't an endless search outside yourself for something to fill a gap you only believe is there.
Real growth is recognising yourself again after every time you feel lost; it's hearing your own original voice again, beneath every noisy thought.
Maybe we were never really searching for wholeness. We were only ever remembering the whole self we've always been.
Also worth a listen: a year ago, we wrote another song drawing from the same book, "Taisha's Book" — it's called "Taisha's Love."
This Week's Reflection
If you no longer needed to prove you're whole enough, which doubt about yourself would you set down this week?
Some feelings stay hidden in the heart.
Maybe they need a song to be heard again.
This page is a reading reflection inspired by ideas from "Taisha's Book." Please read the original book for the full text, and support the original author.
Paul & Cami @ Soul New Energy · sharing with you ✨